i made a vow to myself that i shall never give in

漂浮的一直都是我的心。无法定下来，是我的弊病。
攀缘着自己不应该攀缘的事情。所以，长期处于矛盾的状态。

不晓得自己的未来会是如何？在此时此刻，我其实真的很想就这么定下来。我的心，应该如何才能定下来呢？我觉得好累，我好不喜欢这种感觉。

所以，我决定了要忠于自己。我什么都不想管了。

把自己做好吧！其他的就由他去吧！真的就随他吧！

自己其实是很自私的。。。我看得太清楚了，直到我想逃避。

无论你过去的经历如何，即便是悲伤的。它依旧成就今天的你。每当你听回一些老歌，这些老歌将会带领你走一趟回忆之旅。让你体悟到原来自己是如此真实地活着。

也许真的是这些伤痛和徘徊，让我体悟到，我竟是如此真实的活着。

我们都是有福报的人吧！此时此刻会站在这个位置，去体会一些其他人也许都不会怎么感同身受的事情。

 

It isn’t your problems that define you, but how you react to them and recover from them.

Do what you can, when you can, and acknowledge what you’ve done.

Be honest with every aspect of your life, always.  Because you are the one person you can forever count on.

Robert Frost (1874–1963).  Mountain Interval.  1920.

1. The Road Not Taken

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;	5
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,	10
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.	15
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.	20

   

How you response to things shows how you response to life.
because both are the same person.

040812。星期六。吉隆坡。晴。

来了一个星期。一切都似乎再正常不过了。没有什么突发事件，一切真的是再正常不过了。

人，也许都无法安定于现状。有人告诉我说，我们的祖先都是逃难的民族，所以那潜在的不安全感渗透于我们的思维中，很难去除。我想，这叫居安思危吧！

而我，是不是基于这所赐，这并不是我想去思维的问题。
我，只想为自己现在的情绪做个整理。

一切真的再也正常不过了。但是，我却是一点踏实的感觉也没有。有一种漂浮的感觉。好像整个人失去了重心，松散去了，找不到专注点。

这是不是我的缓冲期？我的适应期？

松松散散的东西，捉不到重点。也许，这就是我感到难受的地方。


回归于现在，什么是我逼切要解决的呢？该好好的想一想了。